You lead a predictable and guaranteed painful existence. You numb yourself with drugs and sometimes lots of sleep. You wait for the pain to go away.
Before long you build an illusion that your recovery is out of your reach.
Then you build another illusion that if you were meant to recover, your journey out of depression would be clear, fast and totally pain-free.
Have you ever thought that you might be hampering your own recovery and choosing to play it safe instead? ‘Better the devil you know?’
Could it be possible that the pain of your depression is less than the pains you might experience during and after your recovery?
There are so many risks associated with depression recovery.
Let’s explore just a few of them.
So, what would you possibly face, change, experience, endure, drop, acquire or cease doing on your way out of depression?
You would finally have to face the truth that you cannot step back into your old (pre-depressed) self or your old (pre-depression) life, which means that:
– Your life would change, and this process of change could be frightening and uncomfortable.
– You would change; as in order to heal you would have to undergo a process of personal transformation (Again, it can be frightening and uncomfortable).
– You would have to let go of some of your habits, beliefs and attitudes (not simple to do, as you would need a lot of discipline and commitment, as well as doing internal work and taking physical actions no matter what mood you find yourself in).
– You would have to be prepared to let go of some people dear to your heart, as they might not embrace the new depression-free you and might find it very threatening and uncomfortable.
– You would have to stop manipulating people and trapping them in with your depression.
– You would no longer be able to use depression as an excuse for your behaviour, mood swings and the hurtful words you use.
– You would no longer be able to blame it all on depression.
– You would have to stop blaming yourself and others.
– You would have to stop feeling a victim.
– You would have to stop digging up your past.
– You would have to take responsibility for your life and your actions.
– You would have to become accountable to yourself.
– You would have to develop self-discipline.
– You would have to stand up for yourself and establish your new boundaries.
– You would have to learn and develop new skills.
– You would need to make choices and overcome the fear of making them.
– You would have to step into the unknown and you would need all your courage to do so despite feeling scared and uncomfortable.
– You would have to take care of yourself.
– You would have to heal and accept that depression was a remarkable experience of your life.
I am sure I missed a bunch of other reasons to stay put. Please leave a comment if you can think of anything else, especially if you have your personal AHA moment.
My main point, however, is this: depression recovery is not an easy and comfortable journey!
It’s an inner journey of extreme self-discovery, unique personal growth, and astonishing strength.
Is it worth taking this risk of recovery? I truly belief so!
“And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom” – Anais Nin
Stay strong, remain hopeful and seek inspiration!
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